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Sunday, September 13, 2015


You want to help save souls?  Two young women, 24 and 23 years old, who have one more night at a hotel in Miami, Florida.   No pimp so there's no trafficking.  They have already asked the hotel if they'd hire them and they're only hiring Hispanics - not African American girls.  These women have been hooking since they were kids to survive and have tried everything.  This woman has put in applications at car washes, Walmart, etc. and she says they keep hiring illegal aliens.  She tried real estate and got ripped off.  She's at the end of her rope and cried the whole hour we spent talking on the phone.  She's even willing to go into drug treatment to get help.  She's "done".  But she needs help with one more night at the hotel.  She needs to go somewhere, get money for the hotel, a job, etc.  Call me to get her contact information and help.   This is urgent - we have until noon tomorrow to come up with something for them.
Okay - I've now emailed everyone I know to see if anyone can help.  No response.  One woman said she'd "post this on her facebook", while a survivor told me she'd do something after she attended her noon AA meeting.

In the meantime, these two women told me they are now sitting in the lobby of their hotel.  I placed an ad on Craigslist.  

I called the Catholic Charity Chapman Partnership.  Their 877 number doesn't connect to my phone for some reason.  All I can think of is it's blocked from a 702 area code phone number.  I called their office line and was told I had to call the 877 number for emergency assistance.  I left them an email since I can't get through on their emergency line.

I called the Mother Teresa Mission of Charity - and their phone number is disconnected.

I called the Salvation Army shelter number at 9:00 a.m. my time - which is noon Miami time and they said "no one was available to take my call" and hung up on me.

I called and got a woman on the line who said for "emergency housing they have to wait until 10 am tomorrow morning to call for an intake".  That doesn't sound like "emergency" to me.

I called the Miami police 

at (305) 476-5423 and asked them for the phone number to emergency housing for women.  
They gave me a hotline for "victim services". 

I asked them for help and they gave me 3 other phone numbers to call.

One of the phone numbers was for the Salvation Army.  Their operator told me to get emergency housing, one has to call the "homeless hotline" to get a referral for help.  Funny the police didn't know that nor did victim services.

I called the hotline at 305 375 2273.  I got a recording that said to "leave a message" but the voicemail was full.

I called the Salvation Army number back - only now no one is answering the phone.

This might be why I'm not getting anywhere.  I went onto facebook to look for homeless resources - and found this

I got a response to the Craigslist ad from a woman in recovery saying she'll work with these women.  I told them to call her and we'll see what happens.

UPDATE:  I did get this facebook a few minutes ago:

I have put them in touch with this officer and will post back what happens. 

I'm also asking the woman for permission to post a tape of her call.  I would like people to hear what I woke up to this morning - and then follow this case.    Will report back with updates.  This is at 12:18 p.m. on 9/13/15.  She had called me at 7:00 a.m.  Currently, she found a hotel for $40 for the night she's in until the morning until we get her squared away.  

UPDATE:  7:30 p.m.  The cop told them he can't "do anything until the morning" and the woman who said she could help turned out she wasn't in a position to help.  She was staying with other people who said "no".  So they are paid up until tonight at the hotel and everyone is saying they won't help these two women either because they don't have any money, don't know anyone, or they refuse to help them because they say "I'm a bitch".  I don't understand the logic of how being a bitch to me by saying I'm a bitch has anything to do with these two women in crisis who don't want to go out on the track to pay rent anymore.  

Back to the phones.

UPDATE 9/15/15 at 8:45 a.m.  When I left this woman to sleep - I had instructed her to do the following things in the morning:

8:00 a.m. she was supposed to call the commander back about getting into a trafficking program.

10:00 a.m. she had to call the homeless hotline to do an intake. 

Both of these calls I could not make for her since she is over 18, I'm not her legal guardian, and they're going to ask personal information such as her ID number, social security number, etc.  

I had sent her a list of nanny "live in" jobs that had her own room, and provided a car for the job in what appeared to be photos of very nice families with children - no single men.  My thoughts were many of us have moved into those kinds of jobs and done well since they are furnished, they have a car, there is food in the house, and everything one needs is right there.

Then if she still didn't have any help - she was to call Social Services for help.  

I was worried it might take time to get her some type of help because of the homeless crisis going on in Miami I read about in the news.  I knew they could not lock her out legally without a lockout notice at the motel which we could fight in court to stay any legal eviction.  However, that does not stop motel owners from doing illegal lock-outs.  So I told her she could not leave the room at any time nor open the door if anyone but police knocked because I know landlords do illegal lock-outs all of the time.  I have had them do it to me more than once.  This is why I made contact with the Commander also.  I told her if they tried to illegally lock her out - she could now call the Commander to make sure he did not allow this to happen.  

But I was still worried about a time delay in getting her help.  I was not receiving any cash help from anyone.  To make matters worse, I had my own problems.  Because of helping her - I had left my own cell phone for our hotline go off.  I figured "if God wants it on - it will be put back on" and I concentrated on helping this woman.  What worried me however was the people that would be calling me back to help her on the phone that was now disconnected.  

Sure enough - the phone went off.  I got a facebook from someone saying "I just tried to call and your phone was off" about 2:00 a.m. I told the truth - I didn't have the money for the phone.  I don't know if he wants me to use his name yet - so I'll just say a very nice man sent over enough to pay for her motel for one night and my cell phone bill for the month also.  Wow.  God provides if you do the right thing every time.  A righteous man stumbles 7 times and gets back up but a wicked man - well you know the rest.

Anyway, I then stayed up until 4:50 a.m. my time.  I texted her to see she was awake to make the call to the commander - and she was.  I crashed thinking she would make the calls.  Because I had been up all night - I missed an appointment with a producer I had for an interview with a reality show - but oh well.  I got some sleep and then got up to check on her.  

She reported she called the commander at 7:58 a.m. and he was not in - and then she fell asleep.  So the homeless intake didn't get done either.   Okay now what?  It's now after 5 pm and the only thing I could think of was to call upon the Mormon Church.  They have a homeless emergency outreach program anywhere they are.  So I started telling her about this.  

Why didn't I pay her rent another day - because I wanted to talk to her more first.  I wanted to see if she was still with the program, or it was truly self destructive and her setting herself up to go back to the streets.  As I'm telling her how to reach out to the Mormons - she starts telling me how this is too much trouble, she doesn't like how I'm doing this, and starts asking me for the following:

She wants me to "do it for her" - everything.  She wants housing, food, clothing to go look for work in the real estate field while she sets about to rebuild her real estate career for her and her sister. She wants me to stop texting other people and get on the phone with her and offer her emotional support.  She's telling me this while my phone is going off with text messages from people offering help and phone numbers.  

When I explained to her we are a 12 step group and that I can't "do it for her" and take care of her like a husband or a parent - that all I can do is show her how to get onto her feet like I got onto my feet (I left the sex industry with no car, no money, no job, no training, no ID, homeless, on probation, and coming off a $2,000 a day drug habit with no drug treatment center willing to admit a female addict prostitute without money or insurance, and the only homeless shelter telling me I could "sleep on a chair in the church" because they were "out of beds" - and I GOT OUT.  

I begged my mother and grandmother to allow me to sleep in my grandmother's living room.  I slept on a foam mat on the living room floor.  I enrolled in computer school and waitressed for money I turned over to my grandmother so I wouldn't smoke the money.  I let my mother drive me to and from school and work.  I let my sponsor drive me to daily NA meetings.  I did what my sponsor told me to do.  After I got my computer degree in six months, I got a job.  My grandmother bought me a blue suit to interview in as I had no clothes.  I wore that same suit all my first week until I got a check and could buy more clothes.  Thirty days later - I moved into a $99 move in special apartment on the whore stroll with a 13 inch black and white TV, an orange crate, and a mattress that was left in the dumpster the manager said I could have I sprayed with Lysol.  That was 1985.

As I'm talking to her and three other people - she starts telling me this is "too hard" for her and "too embarassing" and she "doesn't want to talk to a cop" and yada yada yada.  When I remind her if she hooks and gets arrested then no one will be able to help her sister she said "oh well" basically.  Okay at that point - I'm not going to pay her rent and let her go out hooking on this man's money.  I wait to see what she's going to do and she basically blows me off because I'm not giving her what it is she wants - which is the rent paid for, cash money wired to her for food, and no job to pay for her rent, with her not having called on one job.

To double check I asked her "did you call on any of the nanny jobs?" to which the answer was a bunch of excuses.  

THIS is why AA says they are not the alcoholics "banker".  When Bill Wilson was opening up his home to drunks who were using him as a flop house - no one got sober.  When he started saying that all he could do was offer his "experience, strength and hope" that's when people got sober.  

I don't care if I have a million in the bank - I can't help this woman financially if she's not interested in hearing my "experience, strength and hope" of how she's going to get out of sex work.  This is not about paying her rent.  This is about how is she going to leave sex work, and not return.

Only SWA has "one requirement for membership" which is a "desire to leave the sex industry".  At this point, I'm not hearing that desire out of her.  Meaning I have to retreat.  

I gave her some phone numbers she could call in the morning after she had some sleep in case she changed her mind about what she was going to do.  What I was hearing was that she wanted to go back to sex work rather than deal with all this transition. 

Okay.  She's an adult and that's her choice.  I wished her the best of luck, again I gave her some phone numbers to call of some social workers, and bowed out.  I told this donor what had happened and went to go do the laundry and walk the dogs.  

I got another day clean and out of sex work.  

UPDATE:  As you can tell by the above - it sounded like she was opting to go back to street prostitution instead of all of this stress of making the jump to get out.  I had left it with her to "please get some sleep before you make any decisions" which it turns out she did.  

In the meantime, we got two donations from people to help us out.  We received a $25 donation from Denise, and $100 from Benjamin.  Benjamin said to "pay your cell phone bill" because my phone was cut off at midnight just as I was organizing this rescue.  The rest he said we could use for her motel.  Which we paid the cell phone for $46 and the hotel for one night came to $47.  That left us with $32 left in the operating budget.

I didn't hear from anyone at first but the sister.  We sometimes ask truck drivers to help us with long distance transportation.  The sister wanted to go into drug treatment, and there is free treatment now being offered in another state.  The only catch however is she wanted me to be the one to walk her into treatment.  So I agreed to meet with the driver in this certain city by a certain date and time.  Problem was how to get there.  Gasoline in my car costs me $50 to get there.  That's without food for the 12 hour round trip and if I need help with a flat tire, oil, etc., then it's more.  

So I needed to get my hands on at least $20 more to make the trip.  Every account I had would have required me to transfer the paypal money to it to have it in cash in time to leave to go and pick up this woman.  The only way I could think of to get the cash in hand to buy gasoline would be if I could wire the money to myself.  But the banks were all telling me 2 to 3 days.  I normally ask a friend to help me in situations like this who is on our board, but he was traveling for work and on an airplane.  ll I could think of to do was to return to Benjamin and ask him if I could paypal him some money that he could then in turn wire me.  He agreed.

I had enough gas to get to my destination - but not enough to get back home.  Benjamin said he was having problems wiring me for the money from online and he'd have to go into the store with cash - which he would do "after work".  I agreed - only then someone attacked my facebook page.  Meaning they shut down my facebook page upon receipt of my drivers' license.  I discovered this by my phone blowing up from SWA members saying "did you know your facebook is down?" while I was sleeping and preparing for this trip.

I contacted Benjamin from my other FB account to let him know that despite the page being down - I was here.  THIS is why I have more than one account.  Pimps routinely attack the account - but by having other accounts it allows me to stay in touch with people during rescue operations.    Only I'm not hearing an answer and the time is coming up for me to leave to meet the one sister in time.  Finally I have no choice but to leave anyway and hope that God will sort this out.

I arrive in Vegas and Western Union tells me there's no money.  I reach out to Benjamin asking for the tracking number.  He then says he didn't go to WU because my FB account was shut down.  However, my FB account wasn't shut down until midnight in his time zone - a time by which he would have gone to WU prior.  Fine.  I ask him to go now and do it only he says "you're calling me a liar" and blocks me.  


I'm now hours from home unable to get home and he's blocked me.  What am I supposed to do now?  Panhandle?  That's going to be a great thing to do in front of a woman I'm asking to "trust me".  So I went on the offensive.  I posted about what had just went down on this blog.  Benjamin was insisting that since he had "donated $100 - this $50 was his".  No it wasn't.  First of all, he'd already given it to me.  Second, I had spent the money as he had asked me to - on the hotel and the cell phone.  There was a whopping couple of bucks left after I did this - not $50.  Meaning that $50 was mine he had just walked off with and blocked me.

After I posted the blog post - I went about trying to let his friends know about how Benjamin treats people in a jam.  Only I can only find one "real" friend.  The rest appear to be not people who appear to know him personally.  I told this woman what had happened and instead of asking me for any proof of my accusation - she lashed out at me to "drop it because it's not healthy".  Real easy for her to say when she's not stranded out of state without gas home at the moment and a newcomer arriving any minute.

Benjamin finds out about the blog post and goes on the offensive.  He says he will wire me the money IF I issue him a verbal apology.  I offer a written one.  I'm not at home and not going to talk on the phone I use during rescues.  He insists that he wants to "hear my voice" giving him an apology.  This makes no sense to me.  Besides, frankly at this point I don't trust him.  

He then calls the hotline from a blocked number thinking he's going to reach me.  Instead he reaches another member of SWA where he then goes on the attack of me.  His directive for some reason is to speak to me directly.  He then starts blasting her with the fact that "this is all a misunderstanding" and that I have "defamed" him.  She counters with "so you've sent the money?"  He scurries off.

One of the other members of SWA hears about this and decides to rip into him.  Who would do this?  It's not making any sense to be honest.  She lets him know if he doesn't send this money to get me home - she's going to personally make sure  everyone online knows about what happened.  

Within two minutes of her message sent to him - Benjamin contacts the hotline with the WU tracking number.  Okay then on that front.  

I get this one sister checked into a residential drug treatment program.  I know this group and they will make sure she gets an apartment upon getting out, and work.  I've seen them churning out addicts out of the system in this town before.  I also know people in this group that I can call to keep an eye on her progress.

I then reach the first sister who contacted me I thought we had lost.  She tells me she had thought about going back but changed her mind.  Instead she called the local Mormon church I had suggested she get in touch with.  Most Mormon churches in large cities have a "homeless emergency assistance" person or office.  I have never had them let me down in an emergency.  They've been helping me with rescues for the whole time I've been doing this.  Sure enough - they had a family that agreed to take her in and help her get on her feet.  She was with them now.  When I hadn't heard from her - she was on her way to this family.

She came to our Sunday phone meeting.  That was awesome.  Another member who came to the phone meeting says to her "I'm only a two hour drive from you" and agrees to work with her.  So mission accomplished - we have a local SWA member with "time" who will walk through this with her, and she has a place to stay while she goes through the transition out of the sex industry, and to stay clean.  Her sister is now checked into a residential treatment program.

I have enough gas to get home.  Once again - when something is God's will - we've had the "power to carry it out".  Doesn't mean we did it "gracefully" - but it got done.  

As for Benjamin - we wouldn't have done the rescue without his help.  I wouldn't have had the phone on to organize the rescue without his help.  So he may be a "reluctant" help - but he was a true help.

I want to thank Denise for also making this rescue possible from In Step Residential Treatment Center.  Truly their people really care - or this woman wouldn't have helped me.  That's a rare thing to find these days!  

Thursday, August 27, 2015


When we started Sex Workers Anonymous - we have always stood on the fact of "not caring where you came from, what you did, who you worked with, how much you made, etc.".   Nor have we focused on why someone entered the industry.  To us - it's like asking an addict or alcoholic to make a distinction about why they started drinking and/or using, or even to make a distinction about how they got the alcohol and/or chemicals.  I mean does it matter if the addict got their fix by a legal prescription or by stealing the drugs?  Isn't what we're supposed to care about when they come to us ONLY about helping them to transition out of sex work?

Which is one of the reasons why we strongly denounce the focusing of resources ONLY upon trafficking victims when it comes to helping a man or women to transition out of sex work.  We also don't believe that getting someone out of sex work is about just offering drug treatment and job training.  To prove our point - let's talk about the transgender issue that's going on in the news with now with respect to Cait Jenner.

Now we can all see that Bruce Jenner had enough money on hand already to pay for the surgeries, hormones, doctors, clothing, etc. without resorting to sex work.  However, that's not the case for the many transgenders I've come to know who are in the sex industry.  I've come to know many who have gone through the transition - many who are still going through the transition.  Trust me - work becomes an issue.  Not just to pay for the transition - but just to pay the rent.

First of all, many surgeons require that one live as the sex they're transitioning into for at least a year.  So if they're a man transitioning into being a woman - they need to live as a woman.  However, many employers are not very understanding about an employee who is wearing a dress while sporting a 5 o'clock shadow.  There's also the question of where is this money going to come from for the surgery, the new clothing, even legal fees for name changes, etc.  Nor are many landlords very open minded either.  So it's not like someone going through this can just get a job or an apartment anywhere like other people can -  so even the simple basic things can be an issue.

It's very easy to fall back upon the sex industry to pay for the transition - especially when most of the transgenders are young.  Especially when the category of the 1/2 man 1/2 woman is very popular within the sex industry.  Not just for physical sex but even on the webcam categories.  Many of the webcam sites, as well as many strip clubs, report that the "lady boys" are their most popular categories.  Even with the S&M communities - the idea of a mistress who is a combination of male and female are quite popular.

Now I'm not saying that all transgenders are prostitutes.  Cait Jenner proves that this is not the case across the board.  Nor do many transgenders choose to enter into sex work to pay for their transition.  But the fact remains that while going through the transition - just paying the rent becomes difficult.  I refer again to a short interview I had with Mya Taylor who is in the film "Tangerine" out right now who reported that many of the transgenders she's known have resorted to sex work to both pay for the transition as well as to support themselves when going through the awkward stages.

Again not always by choice.  We have an interview here for example of one of our members who was thrown out of his house at very young age when his parents found out he wanted to go through the change.  Not having finished school, and not even being old enough to get a work permit - this young boy had to eat.  So sex work became a way for him to support himself when everyone else had abandoned him - and to also pay for his sex change.  This is more common than you might think as we get many members who report to us their families abandoned them when they found out they wanted to go through the change.  You also can't just go to any group or foster home - without finding yourself being beaten, raped, tortured, abused, etc.  So yes in some cases living on your own and working in the sex industry does become a safer option for you.

Even after the transition - questions are going to come up with employers and landlords.  In a bad economy with 1,000's of applicants - many won't hire someone who has gone through such a change for one reason or another.  Health even can become a factor.  I've known many transgenders who have had difficulty adjusting to the hormones - leading to a lot of time spent not able to work.  Which is another plus about the sex industry - you get clients, or regulars, who will often help you through these times because they care about you.

Now trafficking is a fact of life with anyone - male, female or transgender.  But the reality is that sex trafficking is very minimal with respect to transgenders for a few reasons.  One being that as a man to begin with - they're strong.  Strong enough to defend themselves physically if threatened and/or attacked.  So they're not likely to be so easily physically threatened like a tiny 90 pound woman might be by a pimp.

Second, they're not as prone to the emotional deception pimps use.  Nor can they be knocked up and saddled with a kid that ties them to the pimp for 18 years or more like they do when it comes to females.  It's just harder to traffick men vs. women because also of the way we're raised also.  Women tend to be more submissive and raised to sort of let themselves be dominated by men - but not the men who are transitioning into women.

It's also about the clients.  While there is a huge pool of clients who get off on the idea of seeing a woman who is being forced to see them, and degraded in such a manner as this - usually the clients who want to see transgenders are not into seeing this kind of degradation.  So there's also just less demand for trafficked transgenders.

Within the pimp communities - it's not a sign of respect to be trafficking in transgenders.  You won't see a lot of attention giving to a transgender pimp at say the "Pimp n Ho Ball" for example.  In some circles it's even an insult between pimps like "oh he is so bad he can only pimp transgenders".

Not that it's not done at all.  One of our early members was Mike.  He was sold at 8 years old.  The gang that bought him would dress him up like a girl, and fed him hormones in his morning juice.  The reason was the wealthy men who bought him could explain a young girl traveling with them easier than they could a young boy.  So when he'd travel with his clients - he'd always be dressed like a girl so as to throw off the press about who he was or why he was there.  Mike was also being prepared to be forced to go through the change - but killed his pimp when he was 13 years old because he didn't want to be forced to go through the change.

Now I want you to imagine how you've been in sex work to cope, and pay for, the transition for many years.  Only now you're there.  You've found a place to live and have a career and settled into your new life.  Now it's time to quit sex work.  But it's not an easy adjustment.  Where do you go for help to go through this transition now from sex work back into other work?

Saturday, August 8, 2015


Here's a clip -  I heard about this movie on Pacifica Radio.  The one Kamala Harris is threatening to shut down after they targeted them for audit I think because my ex-husband, who I never speak to anymore by the way, is on their board.  So trust me Kamala - you won.

Kenneth Konz - the targeting of a public radio station with an audit forces them to try and only air things during the audit that will "appease the God's" so to speak so they don't lose their funding.  I find it interesting that this whole audit process started about 2007-2008 - right about the same time the sex trafficking movement got entirely hijacked by people who also want to make so sure that people like myself don't get one minute of air time - they will put all these resources behind them to make sure a few voices are silenced.  Or has anyone else noticed that Pacifica radio will NOT speak about sex trafficking on US soil since the audit started besides myself?

You won Kamala because after moving down here so I could do some shows on their station - you hit them with that audit and threatened their operating budget.  So he's told everyone I'm not even allowed on as a caller on their shows - let alone a show on domestic sex trafficking while they're in danger of being shut down.  He's a "good little boy" who knows when to keep his mouth shut.  He's got a year longer clean than I do so he's seen this take-over of the recovery field by Big Pharma, professional treatment centers, and the prison-industrial complex that wants to build bigger jails,

ESPECIALLY in California by the border where they can indefinitely hold illegal aliens in the jails for processing so they can hire them out for $1.00 an hour as cheap slave labor.  Heck they've even got them fooled into thinking they don't have the same rights as Americans while on US soil - and they don't have to even pay for their medical care.  Then when they riot too much - they just shut down that jail and build a brand new shiny one.

Not powered on solar power mind you - but electric.  I asked him how on earth he's able to work as a drug counselor in this field knowing what he knows but keeping his mouth shut - and well his cancer a few years ago answered that question for me.  He couldn't even call his daughter on her birthday on March 6th because "he can't cope" with her brain tumor situation.  That's how he's not handling things very well if you ask me.  Because it has to go somewhere.  In his case I guess it was cancer.  Just like I saw Bob Stone die of cancer and Bob Barrett now has diabetes so bad he's living in a nursing home.  While me?  I went that route, learned my lesson after a stroke almost took me out, and I'm getting stronger and healthier every month.  Then again I'm not backing down.

We had put together a film crew comprised of Hollywood people to do a documentary on what's going on right now with sex trafficking in the USA - and they all got threatened off the project.  So I told myself what I usually do is that "if you want it done at all - do it yourself" so I was thinking I'm going to have to make this film.

But how?  I do have a pretty good video camera, and an iphone.  There was this woman in Florida who said she was going to give us all the film equipment we needed free of charge - but the minute I asked for the equipment she disappeared.  So that must have been a ruse.  Either that or she got threatened off also.  Who knows.

But then I heard that "Tangerine" was filmed on an iphone on an interview that was actually allowed on Pacifica Radio last week.  Of course I had to see the quality of this - especially since they said they used "real" people in the film, not hired actors really.  So I clicked on the trailer and was blown away.  I felt like I was watching the birth of a new film maker - like a new Woody Allen or a new Tarantino.  I also felt like I was witnessing a new star - Mya Taylor.

She is sexy, beautiful, funny and charismatic.  I also felt like I was watching the birth of a new star - like the first time I saw John Travolta or Marilyn Monroe and the screen just lit up for them also as it does for Mya.  And yes the screen just lights up for her.  She has "star quality".

Sean Baker, the film maker, spoke on the interview on Pacifica Radio about how he went hanging around the Gay & Lesbian Center in Hollywood where he met Mya.  She introduced him around and helped him develop the story line from what he said.  It got me to thinking I haven't gone down there since I have moved back to Los Angeles.  Sex Workers Anonymous used to have a different meeting down there than our meeting in Tarzana or Beverly Hills or Santa Monica.

The reasons was because the needs are different.  When we ran the meeting down by the center back in the 1990's - it was because many just couldn't find work.  This was also why many transgenders weren't getting tested for HIV.  They didn't look like Caitlin Jenner believe me in the 1990's but more like Renee Richards - or a guy in a dress.  For that reason, they told me they didn't want to go to the health centers for HIV testing because they're be stared at, laughed at, etc.  So again with the help of them Mayor Bradley, GLASS, the CDC, UCLA, etc. we were able to set up a satellite testing center in W. Hollywood staffed only by other ex-sex workers who were also transgender.

This outreach served two purposes.  It got the transgender sex workers that Mya Taylor is portraying out of the house, tested, and educated about HIV/AID's AND  it provided those who were found to be positive, or who just wanted out of sex work, a job that paid the bills and also made them feel connected and useful.

It's projects like this that I've been trying to reach people like Michael Weinstein at the AHF about re-building only to be blown off.  That's why I wrote the Ryan White people a letter letting them know he's been ignoring someone who was part of bringing the HIV infection rates down from almost 8 0 percent in sex workers in Los Angeles in the 1980's to down below 6 percent within one year when I've been trying to make contact with him to discuss how his current policies are completely ignoring the most vulnerable and the most infected right now - truly causing a health crisis brewing now.

It seems they registered their disapproval by denying him $3.8 million dollars in grant funding this year.  But did that get me a phone call?  Nope - it appears he's just finding another way around this for his agenda that has nothing to do with protecting the public from HIV, nor protecting the sex industry from it either.  I'm sure he'll find a way around them for whatever his plans are.

In the meantime I thought if we can film a film that looks this good on an iphone - maybe we can go back into that part of Hollywood, talk to some real transgenders about what their world is REALLY like, and maybe use that as a way to further promote "Tangerine".  Plus I thought it would be great to have Mya be the hostess and narrator to take us on  a journey into the "real" world of the transgender living down in that part of town today where Tangerine was filmed.  I mean do they have pimps even?  What do they need down there the most today?  Jobs, drug treatment, free medical care - what?

So I looked up Mya on twitter.  She's a doll and got ahold of me the next morning.  Of course she loved the idea but she's in N. Dakota now.  I'd have to fly her out here, put her up, pay her expenses of course to bring her to Los Angeles to do another "reality show" about transgenders.  She was all for the idea - but asked me if I had the money to bring her back to Los Angeles.

No I don't - but maybe there's money in the marketing fund for the film.  So I told her I'd get ahold of Sean and see what he thought about the idea.  To date, it's been about a week now, Sean hasn't answered my emails or facebook requests to speak to him about the idea.

So we move on.  I had to do some medical things for my daughter so I can't do anything until next week.  But I do have some signs with our hotline phone number on them.  I'm planning on going down to the center next week and see if they'll post some signs for Sex Workers Anonymous, and maybe give me a meeting space.

Mya did tell me this - in her opinion the movie is not their daily reality.  For one thing, they don't have pimps, nor a real "pimping" or "trafficking" problem down in that part of town with the transgenders .  I know the pimp culture really looks down on anyone who would pimp a transgender.  On Pimpin 101 radio they even said "real pimps don't pimp transgenders" so their culture doesn't approve of it.

But what Mya said is most needed is jobs.  She said that's why they're mostly doing sex work is because of not finding companies who will hire them.  Well - we know some companies who will.  But it does raise a good question.

The same as I saw with Christy Mack.  She said she would "not quit porn" after the attack.  I say "who would hire her?"  I even posed that question to two companies that actually offer scholarships to trafficking victims.  I asked them if they would hire a known porn star to work for them.  They declined to answer and stopped speaking to me - which is an answer.  No they won't.

So I am working on some reports on cities about what they're doing about sex trafficking - and will be including a report on who will hire sex workers, porn stars, and transgenders as well to this report.  The question however becomes "how do I find out if they really will?"   Of course everyone will "say" they will - but will they in reality.  I know many companies who do hire people with criminal records for prostitution - will hire them - but they don't want it shouted from the rooftops they do.  It's considered "bad publicity' to say you hire ex-prostitutes.

We've got a long way to go.  Back in the 1930's one didn't hire an alcoholic because he was considered to be "of weak moral character".  By calling alcoholism a "disease" now companies have to hire one or they're considered discriminating against the sick.   Now we're not going to get the sex industry declared a disease.  These people who want to say that it's "okay" for those who were "forced" are actually making it harder for us to leave unless we come up with some victim story.

Do you know how bad it's become?  I've answered our hotline since 1987.  Starting about a year ago - women who call me now start out the conversation with trying to explain to me they were "not a trafficking victim" like they're not only apologizing to me - but feeling me out to see if I'm going to reject them because they weren't.  I mean they're leading with this.  When I ask why - they tell me that "well everyone else I spoke to has said they won't help me unless I was".

Now that's a crime.  To me it's like telling a woman she's not considered a "rape victim" unless her rapist had a gun or a knife pointed at her.  The rape people have had to work hard at getting people to understand how it can be still rape without a weapon, and even if the woman consents because she doesn't want her children in the next room harmed.  This is the same for us.

Anyway - I've got an iphone so no excuses after watching "Tangerine".  I will be posting more videos to our channel soon.  Now if I can just figure out how to work this camera app - we'll be fine!  I guess Sean Baker is interested in making a movie about the transgender community that can get us all laughing at them - but not talk to me about a film that will actually help any of them find work other than the streets.

But he didn't make the film about transgenders or even to help them so why would he call me back about this project I'm thinking of?  He was very clear what the movie was about in an interview he gave for "Paper" here where he said  "I was just trying to tell a story about Los Angeles, really".

Sean - you did.  You "gained the trust of them" as you also say to get their cooperation for your film project.  A project that does not reflect their daily lives according to Mya at all.  But it does make your career bigger and better to talk to everyone about how you made it on a low budget and an iphone.  But then when I come calling to ask for some help to make a short reality piece about them needing someone to hire them for jobs that actually HELPS this community - I don't even get a return phone call.  While Mya is off in N. Dakota and has moved past that corner - and the new wave is still out there struggling without help.  Sure - she'd "love to help - as long as someone can pay me for it".  Good girl.  You may have moved off the corner - but your game button is still on.  In Sex Workers Anonymous we call it "post-prostitution syndrome" where one is still a hooker just not charging by the hour any longer.  Sure she said she'd "love to help the community" - as long as someone paid her for it.  

Oh yes Sean - you definitely showed us a film about Los Angeles.  Just maybe not the one you were expecting but definitely what I've seen 1,000,000 times over.  Exploit us, use us for films, hire us for entertainment at your parties - but when it comes to helping us and giving something back for what you took, and for making a film that people think is their reality that makes them even more "unhireable" - you can't be bothered.  

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