When I got on my feet again – I read the news clippings about Annie starting her “Hookers for Jesus” program. Boy did I hear about it. I watched the news as this woman put on a showgirl costume, headdress and all – and was going up and down the strip looking for hookers to talk to – telling people that “Jesus loved them”. People were calling me saying "did you see this nonsense?" So she kind of started out evangelizing at first – telling any homeless people “Jesus loved them” and trying to recruit people to come to her church run by Pastor Perez. Which got press for sure. Everyone I saw was laughing at the TV and thought she was nuts basically. I took it as a plea for help and started to reach out to her. I wanted to let her know about SWA – and that we had a big phone book full of recovering prostitutes she could speak to so she wasn't alone. I also wanted to warn her about "post prostitution syndrome" many of us tend to suffer from without proper recovery.
So Heather was only interested in me if I went to her church – otherwise blow me. I got it. I felt like I was a wishbone in a war to see who I'd go to Easter service with - screw that I had my own church I already belonged to that I was attending was the way they were acting. By the way, this was when my daughter was very sick with what we thought was bipolar disorder. She had also been hit by a car and her back had been broken in three places. It triggered what they thought was fibromyalgia on top of it - meaning I was having to care for my daughter at home 24/7. Not once did she ask me how my daughter was doing or if this single able-bodied female with enough strength to run up and down the strip at night could do anything to help me out with the situation. In other words, if I wasn't someone she was "saving" to go to her church - screw me, my daughter, and the other SWA members as people. We also never got invited to attend her church other than the Easter service. Once I turned that down - it was when she emotionally disconnected.
So I started asking her how she was solving these problems. She wouldn't answer me. Simple questions like how was she getting these women work if they had criminal records, or if they had more than one kid. How was she protecting them from a pimp who would come looking? Daycare was very expensive in Vegas then. Also, all the daycares were full then. So you could get a job – but not get daycare. I was having to do a lot of babysitting for our members as it was for that reason.
So of course I was asking her how was she handling this issue in her program and she wouldn't answer me. I then asked her about the showgirl costume. I remembered how Tammy Faye got grief over make-up. I just knew she was getting a lot of guff from the church about a showgirl costume, the blond hair, make-up, heels, etc. She admitted the church people were on her about her make-up and the outfits but then when I asked what Benny had said to her about it she said that “Pastor Perez doesn't know”.
She said she would but I could tell she wasn't happy about it. Of course I asked if she wanted to attend a SWA meeting to see for herself what they were like again thinking she needed to be around some recovering prostitutes instead of just crazy "newcomers". I wasn't strong enough to have one far from the house – so I was holding our meetings in our conference room club house in my condo. She refused to come. I said it was “just to check out how we do things” and I even asked her to come speak. She refused to come speak to our “newcomers”.
Then I got a call from a woman who had a five day notice on our hotline. I asked her how that happened. She told me Annie had gotten ahold of her on the street and told her that she was going to “help” her but she had to quit hooking right then. She had three kids and no job and no car. She trusted Annie and even had gone to church where she said she was paraded around for the congregation while donations were raised. She said she thought the money was to help her so she thought she was going to be okay. But no one was helping her write a resume, or go on a job interview, or apply for benefits, or anything other than parading her around the church. Because she said the next Sunday Heather did the same thing. Then she said they started pushing on her to “choose” which made her feel uncomfortable. But she didn't have time to think because she now has this 3 day notice and one day's worth of food. She said she contacted both Heather and Annie when she got the notice and instead of giving her money – they said “trust God” and blew her off. That's why she went online looking for help and found me.
Now I'm living on $650 a month in SSI because of the stroke. This tiny bit of gasoline was really hard on me that month. I couldn't afford it. So I kept calling Annie for two reasons – asking her why she would tell this woman to just stop hooking without having a job or income in place first like that, then leave her hanging, and then leave me to clean up this mess now on my dime? Where was this money that was donated? Only now I'm not getting any return phone calls at all.
Again, she goes online to find some help because now she doesn't want to go back to prostitution and finds me. So at this point I'm beginning to feel used. Like she thinks this is okay to do because I'm going to come and clean up the mess because I can't leave these women hanging. I had some people say to me "think of it this way - she's doing outreach for you". No it's not. It's not "outreach" when I'm scrambling around helping people with five days and food banks because of an artificially created crisis.
Because instead of being able to show them anything about a program - all I'm doing now is running around solving a financial drama someone threw on them that happened because they trusted someone and got burned. So this is the mood these women are in I'm being handed - like they were stupid for trusting someone who said they could help. In other words, now they feel recovery is just some con they fell for is the mood they're now put in because of this. Now that doesn't increase our membership. Because what's going to happen is what did happen. I solved their immediate financial crisis for them. They feel conned and exploited. After they get their rent paid they're disgusted with themselves and kick themselves for even thinking recovery was possible. And they go back to the streets or their pimp who at least is trustworthy in that they know he's a bad guy. He doesn't pretend to be a good guy and then turn out to be the bad guy in disguise. In other words, they know what they're getting. They turn over and look at me. I'm in physical therapy and living on $650 a month. I am driving a $500 Toyota. I am counting quarters to put gas in the tank to help them. I have a sick kid I'm taking to doctors every other day and caring for. Not the image of recovery that's inspiring them to want this life. I don't even have a chance to introduce them to our other members so they can see that everyone is different. No - they let me solve their immediate problems. And then they're right off back to sex work kicking themselves for even thinking they could ever leave. THAT'S what she was creating and dumping on my head. THAT'S why I wasn't out doing outreach for SWA right then because I knew that's all the new members would see and it would make them run.
So now when I'm calling people are giving me an attitude like “who are you?” because I'm not on TV like she is. When I explain she's not calling me back and I can't get help from her – but I got a woman sitting on my couch that needs help and needs it now – they're giving me an attitude like “well why aren't you on TV also?” My calls to Annie to coordinate our outreach efforts so this doesn't happen - of course are going unanswered.
She said “the news jumped the gun – we were SUPPOSED to get the house but the deal fell through because the man donating the house wanted to be able to visit the women too – wink wink”. Okay gotcha. But wait a minute – if he's “donating” the house – what about the money that was donated to buy the house? As I started asking questions – this woman cut off the call. I then literally saw the websites disappearing. The website for the house disappeared. The website for the counselors disappeared. Everything was being taken down – even the news article about the grand opening disappeared off line.
Okay fine but I'm thinking in a church of 1,000's of members like Pastor Perez has got SOMEONE can put these women up somewhere. So I started trying to get ahold of him so maybe their church could help me find help for these women - and NO ONE WILL CALL ME BACK. I even asked one of these women "here use your cell phone, call these people, tell them you need help and ask them to call you back". We get NOTHING.
Love? They have “love” and they're still hooking. I mean I know what it took for US to develop a program that WORKED and it took us YEARS to develop a program that worked for the people we work with. So no I don't believe she just quits herself and suddenly is now able to help others to quit when I'm also frankly not seeing that she's ever worked a job. I'm seeing her fund raise. I'm seeing how she used all this publicity to get herself a husband who now takes care of her who was related to Pastor Perez.
But I'm sorry if you don't know how to get a job, how to keep a job, and how to live on a budget that's making in a week what you used to make in an hour – I don't know HOW she's possibly going to be able to help anyone. I mean how is she going to show these women how to work a job IF SHE'S NOT WORKING A JOB. Now in SWA if we need to teach someone something - we have a member who does it show them how. I've worked jobs. I've made resumes. I've done interviews. So I can show people how to do these things. All I'm seeing from the news is Annie taking this publicity, using it to get money for herself, a book deal for herself, and a husband. Me? I wrote a book about us by us for us - our Recovery Guide. I didn't write MY memoirs - I wrote the "Recovery Guide" that our members use to help themselves that includes their stories. Our radio program has interviews with our members to tell THEIR stories. All I'm seeing out of Annie is Annie making a life for Annie.
She knows I'm not going to turn these women away. But when the Dream Center stopped taking my calls – that's when I got even more angry. I don't have a husband paying my bills. My time is short. So I just saw all that work go right down the drain. In fact, by the time her show starts filming for Bravo everyone in Vegas STOPS taking my calls. The Salvation Army stops taking my calls. Metro stops taking my calls. The Nevada US Attorney stops taking my calls. Suddenly Annie is the new “darling” of Nevada and I can't get a return phone call because everyone wants to be on the Bravo show with Annie to get publicity. Screw the work - we want on TV. Because while she's being filmed - I'm the one with hookers who have escaped their pimps sitting on my couch telling me Annie's not calling them back either and that's why they called me.
Why? I ask the producers why her show's more important than ours. Well frankly she's much funnier TV than we are is what he tells me. We're doing very serious dark work. Annie's running around the strip like a nut case and people are roaring with laughter when they see her do this. In other words, she was making us a laughing stock but because it's better TV they're going to put her show on over ours which would just be depressing. It was so bad that when I'd be in an NA meeting people would say “you're not that nut job Annie are you?” and once I'd say “no” they'd sigh and say “thank God” and then proceed to tell me how hard they laughed at her clips on TV. But it's the laughs the producers want because that means eyeballs on the screen.
But then I hear this reality series is now partnering her with the Dream Center to open the house – so now I know why they're not returning my calls. They're now part of her reality series. Again, all that work I'd done is now trashed. Okay problem is it's all a lie. When I saw there was no house – I saw her continuing to speak like it was open. I saw Pastor Perez continue to take money because hes' "restructuring" he can. But I know they won't answer the calls not just from me – but also from the prostitutes themselves now calling for help. That makes what they're doing fraud. The donors think they're working with prostitutes - and they may be - one or two. But they sure aren't doing what they'd leading people to believe they're doing - not by a long shot. To top it off - they're handicapping me who is. This isn't right. So yes I'm angry - who wouldn't be?
I wrote to Bravo and the producers and I told them the show was basically a fraud and I was going to report them to the FCC if they continued to air this nonsense. I mean she's literally shown walking up to hookers in hotel lobby's going “psst – the cops are out tonight and hey you want to come get out of prostitution?” like it's a drug deal or something. The show shows her doing outreach NOT the program - BECAUSE THERE IS NO PROGRAM. People are donating to help this? Well Bravo pulls the show after one episode aired because they realized they got a pig in a poke too.
Now granted I saw Polaris drop Annie's listing and they put mine up so that's turning around because people are finally catching on to the game – but in the meantime we've taken some serious knocks. I got Judge Voy not taking my calls because Annie's helping him with his fundraising. Fund raising for a house with 14 beds for teens that's NOT going to solve the problem for teens or adults. I mean he sees 14 girls in one day. Fourteen beds isn't going to solve the 100's of hookers and strippers in Nevada that need help. Help now – not a year from now when the house is built either. But in the meantime - I'm being blocked from providing help to those young women NOW because of all of this. We have a program now, members now, meetings now, and we can be sending those members in to work with those young girls NOW - but instead everyone is putting their energy into fund raising and doing so by telling the media and the donors "nothing exists" which is baloney.
Can I sue? First of all there's no money judgment to win. What attorney does this with no financial reward? Meaning I'd have to hire an attorney. Hiring an attorney is at least a $5,000 retainer. Then the case becomes public record. That means my real legal name is on it. Because these are well known people I sue them and then I get my face splashed all over as the "person who sued Annie and Pastor Perez". Oh yeah I need publicity like that like a hole in the head. I need that so bad I'm going to go plunk down $5000 to an attorney just to have that fun ride. No thank you. Besides, I got people to take care of and don't have the time.
Yes I looked into filing fraud criminal charges. The attorney said I had to PROVE she did not help any prostitutes for the money donated. To do that, I have to obtain records of the prostitutes she spoke to, interview them as to what was done, etc. and those interviews would be "public record". Meaning to prosecute her, or anyone, for fraud I'd have to break the anonymity of a prostitute. I can't do that to these women and call that "helping" them. Yes let's brand a prostitute as the one who filed charges against Annie. So oh well.
Now I'm going to just "flip the script here for a moment". Let's say I'm a "horrible mean person" who is "out of my mind" and "crazy" and have some "personal problem with Annie" and I'm even making all of this up for some reason about what happened - let me ask you something - since I'm a trafficking survivor, child of God, recovering addict, and essentially I am the person she's representing to all these people she's "trying to help" - then why oh why is she NOT calling me then even to offer me any help? She knows I've had a stroke. She knows I've gone through a 2nd divorce. She knows my daughter has a brain tumor and was hit by a car which broke her back. I've not even gotten so much as an "I'll pray for your daughter" or a condolence card when my mother or grandmother died. Nothing. So this means that Annie will only help the victims who are "nice" to her? That she "likes". Oh come on Jesus taught us to "love our enemies" - so give me a break here. My problem isn't with Annie. My problem is that she's getting to eat in the nice restaurant - and I'm getting stuck with paying the tab AND washing the dishes and that's just not fair.
Especially when every time I've had to stand up to the brothel people - she's been nowhere in sight. I found out when this was being heard. http://www.reviewjournal.com/news/nevada-legislature/prostitution-bill-not-nevada-legislatures-agenda I had an ex-brothel prostitute show up at this meeting to go up head to head against George after all the other 45 "abolition" groups had left the building, and she gave her testimony about what happens in the brothels, while I had read a letter on behalf of others who had worked in brothels about what they wanted to help them recover and to ask them NOT to pass this and it was US who wound up without power, lights, cable, phone, TV, or internet for three days after this win in retaliation for what we did - and it was Aubrey who had to relocate out of Nevada because of the death threats she got for testifying - and ANNIE WAS NOWHERE when we did this. NOWHERE. Except taking a bow while we had a target on us and got this defeated. So think about that the next time you want to cut this woman a donation.